Hello people, hello diary... I've moved to a new blog.
Click HERE to be directed to my new blog!

I am going to take my time to blog this entry, as i really have lots of time tonight! A final entry to Vivienne's Diary.

Reason:
I used to blog unhappy and happy or whatever stuff as i really treated this as my diary. Used to blog almost daily too, because blogging using my iphone application is way too easy & convenient. Blogged in the train while on my way to work daily was my routine. Then suddenly i stopped. I don't know why. I just don't feel right. So I decided to start a brand new one, new blog name only for happy posts.. No emo, sad posts for my new blog! Cool huh?

I used to think I can say whatever i want to, i can blog whatever stuff i want to, because mouth belongs to me, blog belongs to me too! But I guess i was wrong. The reason I started this blog is to rant about everything under the sun, moon, stars... but i guess i cannot do it any longer. Ranting out always made me feel better, sometimes the effect is immediate as well! Like when I am unhappy, crying out will make me feel better, but imagine if something/someone stopped you from crying, what will happen? I am worried I couldn't manage at all.

Work and everything is making me pissed and stress. Now twitter is my only hope(but i am also trying to stop ranting there soon-i hope). I am relying too much on my twitter. Twitter is the only 'thing' i told my secrets or whatever first hand information or rants to! Really. And twitter is how friends got to know what is happening to me. I did stop tweeting for a week or so, suddenly. And I think my guess is confirmed. Without me tweeting, nobody knows anything about myself at all. Its kinda sad isn't it? Well, i guess its my life. Nobody is free to hear my nonsense or talk about what am i unhappy or sad about. But the questions ''How are you?" Ïs everything ok?" only comes from strangers, not friends, not lovers, not family. All I can reply to those strangers is "ok".

With this, I've decided to keep everything to myself. Yes i still do tweet, when i am feeling depressed. Twitter keeps me alive (sad to say). Sometimes, when I am really feeling suicidal, I tweet, and i really feel better. I hid in the toilet to cry it all out, and i feel better. And the cycle just continue. Like now, I am crying as i type. I just feel happy that at least I have my blog to keep me talking. I love my blog a lot, but i guess i really have to stop. I just love to throw away my old identity and start new! (Imagine I dump my identity now, get a new name and run away from here? - nah, just random thoughts) Now i really feel so 不舍得... But no, I really need to stop. You guys cannot know too many unhappy stuffs about me. Well, nobody is reading my blog.

Well, I have got nothing to write about already. See ya at my new blog!