23rd March 2010 Tuesday
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
If you feel farking irritated by my complains and rants, just go away ok? I'm not begging you to read. GET LOST NOW! I think I had nightmare last night again! I can't remember the details but I woke up at 3am+ feeling errrr scare -_-
7.05am: Feeling sad because I just paid $90 credit card bills! Every month I have to feel broke. Irritating! I ought to get myself slapped hard! Complain broke and still shopping.. Even if it's not physically, it's online shopping. Zzz..
I'm so excited about lunch time later! Because I've planned to decorate a cake for BB! Tomorrow is his birthday but I did not plan anything. Sorry BB :D so I made him a birthday card. Never mind I will make it ip to him by bringing him to Waraku one of these days - I'm so craving for soba.. *drools*
Last night I finished playing the Murdered game that BB bought for me on my phone. I'm going to play that again now! Cya!
7.35am: Well I've reached somerset! Ok I decided to walk to Yakun to buy my much craved toast!!
8.10am: Its only farking 10 mins and I so feel like screaming! Stop bloody add TS calls to me I simply hate talking to idiots! And yes I'm anyhow arranging payments for customers because I simply don't care much already... I've decided to leave! I'm happy that iPhone application has JobsCentral! I'm so farking going to look for a job already! If one gets shit from customer but you have a good boss, everything will be just fine. But... When you gets shit from customers and shits from management/boss, then it's not worth staying on at all! This place is not worth my precious youth! I've just marked on my calendar - when to tender, when is last day!! Suddenly I'm feeling happy again! But... It's 3 months away...
9.23am: Ok I'm happy... Suddenly I realised.. PY, L, LK, XH have the same thoughts :)
9.44am: Shifu says "how corny can you get?" when he saw me making the card.. Zzz
12.38pm: Today is totally mood-spoiling! I'm sitting on the toilet bowl playing games to cheer myself up! F* u all the customers. No money then don't call because I'm not god, I cannot help. Oh ya and seriously, god cannot help either :) so just go and wait for money to drop! Today, increase 100% on how much I loathe singapore man.. No money and talk in a corky manner, you will only have yourself to blame.
1.13pm: now WZ keep persuading me to stay, somehow although his words did make sense, somehow the kind of feeling - the feeling of quarreling everyday is farking tired. I come in to this farking company as a Customer Care Officer. Now my job scope is customer care officer and collection officer.
Last time:
1 x BB = Collection officer (1xsalary)
1 x Vivienne = Customer Care Officer (1xsalary)
Now:
1 x Vivienne = Customer Care Officer & Collection Officer (ermm still 1xsalary)
Hmmm so expect me to feel farking happy about such shit? Then of course I will reduce my already-low productivity by half as well. I target to answer 35 calls today, is give them face. Now I'm only waiting for Li Keng to help me buy lunch. I'm hungry!
I was on ACW for 10 mins, Sandra chat me to help take a transfer call. I TOTALLY ignore! Weeee!! Sat there looking at the bloody screen blankly!
After arguing much with Wei hong, and he insist I'm like BOB. Zzz..
12.13am: Blogged half way just now but now I forgotten what I want to say earlier on.. F* it but anyway it revolves the same old bloody thing. I announce that I'm totally sick of the f*ing place! Dragging yourself to work everyday is simply no fun. First time in my life, the job makes me keep taking MC or leave just to 'escape' the job/or a break from talking to assholes. I don't know why until now at this hour once I think about WORK, I feel f*ing pissed. And I get angry.. Angry at this f*ing hour. Fuck you assholes!
I'm back to the 'Dejection' state now. F! Simply nothing can cheer me up at this bloody cheebs hour! I just want to walk home, keep walking walking and walking! If any bloody ass disturb me, I will scream my lungs, my heart, my internal organs out!!! FML seriously! My mood is so bloody bad now. Dejected, unappreciated, angry, emo, depressed. What else?
And I warn all the bloody assholes to get out of my f*ing life! Get a life... I do appreciate if someone can set up a new company for QUARRELING. Bloody assholes work for company quarrel with bloody assholes. Isn't it just f*ing great!?
12.26am: I'm still feeling very down down down down... All of the care and concern shown is only words/comments on facebook. It's just a virtual thing. I feel NOTHING at all in real life.
I simply couldn't control my tears anymore.. I sat here on BB's bed for more than half an hour reflecting on what had happened, crying... But f*, I still feel NOT ANY FUCKING BETTER. Why do I always have to scream nobody even cares!
VIVI LOVES
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