10TH JAN 2010 SUNDAY
@ HOME THE WHOLE DAY!

I was like so bored today! I woke up rather early like 9am plus, bathed and do my face shaper mask (HOT! but i hope to slim down my face!) then, i start watching dramas and listen to songs...

Then I started packing this small corner of a table and i packed the whole afternoon! I proceed to teh living room's table, the things inside the drawers are all mine, i think i must try to clear...
I saw lot of antiques.. as well as love letters, BD, xmas cards, old wallets, got down to throw the old stuff away, threw my organisers away as well. But I flipped through them first. Saw my 2007 Organiser, looked through it... beginning of 2007, i started working at this wine shop.. haha! 3 days a week after my work at katong! TIRING!
8th April 2007: My first driving lesson! HAHA!
11th June 2007: Melody was born!
1st July 2007: Bintan Trip! (If i rmb correctly, that was the day Fang passed her TP?)
8th July 2007: Melo's full month party :P
19th July 2007: Flew to Taipei for work!
12th Sep 2007: I passed my driving! PHWEEEET!
12th Oct 2007: Marina Parwning! (I think this is the time when I change my hook and caught a lot of prawns! + Fang caught a FISH!)
1st Nov 2007: Fang collected her Blackie (why i write down? i guess we are all too excited!)
4th Nov 2007: Rented a Hyundai and drive! WOO! Fun!
9th Nov 2007: Cycling...
16th Nov 2007: Cycling & I crashed into a couple and hit the guy's guitar and fall down! Gosh! PAINNNNN! It caused me to limp like for weeks/months! On MC for 4 days then back to work. with my limping stupid feet, squeeze bus 10 and got people gave up seats to me (this is what i remembered)
21st Nov 2007: Bro's BD and I went bk to work...

HAHA then no more, all blanks! sometimes my organiser keeps me organised and acts as a diary (that time i have not start blogging)... reading it, really brought me to 2007 sia! but i still throw all my past organisers away.. I need more space, constrained in this small room with mum.. How is my house hunting? :(

ok, enough of nonsense..
I took pictures of all my icoats too!

The 5 different colours :)

While packing, I found that wedding invitation from Candy...
hmm i din attend - if not i will be one of those that she complained about in her blog :)

And, i think I haven't ''officially'' took pics of my beloved iphone?
hahah...

And I found these in my drawers, actually got more, but lazy already! and hands very dusty!

And I ate 4 nougats today! :X
cannot resist temptations when it is beside me!

I also ''officially'' start using my new pen!

But this melo keep dropping off :(
initially i stick blu-tack, but I am afraid that it might drop :(
so i took it out and keep, leaving the pen clipped to the organiser :P

ok, gtg! I am a little tired..
need to wash up and sleep!
Tml is monday again ROARR!!
The only reward is .... I am nearer to coming friday, nearer to weekends!
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And one thing i just wanna add on, I am pissed... pissed and so pissed...
what happen? why must i suddenly be so pissed with you over the months? why??
what have you done? or what have i done? or not done??
I wanna say ''stop talking to me!'', but i have stopped myself for the 10th times this year...
I just wanna kneel down on my knees to beg.. you... - do not piss me off anytime can?
maybe you are the reason why i always wanted to have kids early! becoz i have a huge gap with you and i seriously mean huge! why other people can have nice and understanding mums but why cant i? (i stopped asking myself this qns since years ago, because i found out god is fair! God gave you something but he took away other things from you) but i couldn't help but just wonder, keep wondering why... then i start to blame my past life that makes me owe you too much!
Life is really full of debts... like what bitch had asked that day: What have we achieve in 2009?
Answer: more debts! hahah!!! I kept telling myself you are just trying to start a conversation with me... BUT WHY UR CONVERSATIONS NEED TO BE INSULTING? or sth that always makes me angry? then came my very last conclusion: I really cannot stay with a person for long (be it friend/relative/family) because i always have reasons to complain about them...
I just wanna be alone.. In a quarrel, some years ago when I was taking my O levels, you still remember i told you not to worry, if i ever leave this house, i will still give you $$?? You told me you do not need my money.. do u still remember?? I remembered them clearly... very clearly yours words, your tone, the scene, your facial expressions... why did i say that?? go and think... all is you and ur doings... and i always blamed you for that, blamed you for all these that had happened over these wonderful years i had... you made me feel lik running away from home when i was less than 10 years old. you still make me FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY WHEN I AM MORE THAN HALF WAY TO THE END OF MY LIFE... why??? can't you just treat me better? or something? you blamed everybody, everybody including your children but did you ever blame yourself??? did you?? i know you will feel super sad if you know i had always blamed you... go ahead tell everybody like what you did last time, just say you had a useless daughter.. when will the day come? when will the day you will break the news to me saying that i am picked from the rubbish bin, back alley or wherever, it makes me happier. :)